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Listening: ‘I Want You to Want Me’ by Letters to Cleo
Enjoying: Not that I ever feel this way about Shane’s sermons… 
Thinking: I love rock n’ roll…
How to Annoy Me: Bitch at me about coming to Creative Space and when I’m finally able to come and call to find out where we’ve moved to, say “I don’t know”.
How to Charm Me: Tell me that I’m doing a great job picking up the officers piece.
Quote of the Day: The search for happiness is one of the chief sources of unhappiness. – Eric Hoffer
Listening: ‘People Will Say We’re in Love’ by Doris Day
Reading: ‘Does this path have a heart?’
Thinking: How do I make myself clear…
How to Annoy Me: The preacher voice. (I ain’t even trying to keep this one anonymous.)
How to Charm Me: Make me a slide show for my birthday. 
Quote of the Day: The fuction of prayer is not to influence God, but rather to change the nature of the one who prayers. – Soren Kierkegaard
I am 24. Man, that feels old! I know it’s not but it feels like it.
I have led a pretty good life so far. Though they have their faults and can drive my crazy, my family is all still here and they love me. I have never been in need of food, shelter, clothing and I get more than just the necessities. My dad asked me what I wanted for my birthday and I said “This semesters school bill paid off.” He replied that that was taken care of so what did I want? My response? Absolutely nothing. I have a laptop which, other than freezing occasionally and that grinding noise that I still need to get checked out, works well and does what I need it to. I have a digital camera and a cell phone. My car, though it sometimes worries me, seems to be working and at least gets me to work and school. I have plenty of clothes and more than enough shoes. I have shelves full of books to read and stacks of books around the room that I need to get through. I truly am blessed and I know it.
In addition to the material possessions and my family, I am surrounded by two wonderful sets of friends. Both groups give me things that I need and I can only pray that I am as much a blessing in their lives as they are in mine. I have a job and in this economy, that is definitely something to be grateful for. I am a part of a church that I love and am excited about. I am able to go to school and get a degree so I can hopefully get a job that I enjoy. I am part of a great dance company that is full of people who make me laugh and keep me excited about dancing.
Is my life perfect? No. If I had it my way, I would long be out of school by now. I would be working at a job that didn’t give me migraines from the stress. I would *definitely* not be living with my parents. But there are reasons for everything. For better or worse, I made certain decisions and that is how life goes. You make decisions and you live with the results, good or bad. This is something I struggle with every year around my birthday. I compare my life to other peoples, which when I’m being rational, I know is stupid. No ones life is perfect and those that appear perfect are probably using a great concealer. I don’t have to measure up to anyone’s standards but my own. (Most of the time, I remember this. Someone must slip me crazy pills around my birthday.) There will always be things that I want to improve or change completely. Some of those things I will be able to control but a lot of things, I won’t be able to. I want to strive to remain content, whatever my circumstances. It does not matter if other people think I should be moved out of my parents house or that I should have graduated or that I should be dating/engaged/married. When you look at the big picture of life, those things matter very little. As long as my life is pleasing to my Papa in heaven, that is enough. My security and significance come from the knowledge that I am deeply loved by God. My identity is who I am – and am becoming – in Christ.
May this coming year bring me closer to my Daddy and as a result, may I be a blessing to everyone around me. If I can accomplish those things, then the past 24 years and whatever time I have left will not be a waste.
Listening: ‘Galway Girl’ by Steve Earle
Reading: ‘You Can’t Change the World’
Thinking: Thank you, Jesus.
How to Annoy Me: Give any of them information with which to further stalk me. You’re not helpful!
How to Charm Me: Help me get a gift to a friend.
Quote of the Day: Contrary to popular opinion, women are not so sentimental as men, but are much more hardheaded. – Taylor Caldwell
