How do you love someone you don’t trust? What does that look like? 1 Corinthians says that Love always trusts. What does that mean? Does it mean you trust the person who has hurt you in the past not to do it again? Do you trust that they one day might be better? How do you not let the distrust jade you and make you stop loving them? Esp. when they keep doing the same thing over and over again. They might apologize but there is never any real change. The apology comes because they don’t want you mad at them. Or maybe in that moment they are truly sorry but not enough to change so that they don’t hurt you in that way again. Is that really love? I know Jesus loved the people who killed Him but did He trust them? Did he trust Judas? I guess not, because He knew Judas would betray Him. So do I go through life expecting to be betrayed? Is upsetting my emotional stability really worth it? I know life isn’t going to be easy but does it have to feel like a constant uphill battle?
*sigh*
Argument I had with God in the car on the way home:
Me: “Why do you love idiots? Why do you say I have to love them? I’m sick of people and their crap! I’m sick of people who are self-righteous and think they know it all! I’m sick of constantly defending my beliefs! Why?!”
God: “You’re an idiot and I love you. I love you and your crap. I love you even when you’re being self-righteous and you think you know it all. Because I love you, damn it.” (Oddly, God had Rich’s voice there. š )
Me: *pause* “That all ya got?”
God: “Yup.”
Me: “Fine. But I’m blogging this when I get home.”
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Wednesday, November 29, 2006 at 2:17 PM
sherylh96
Or how about not making it so much about the other person and what they do or don’t do? They’re gonna screw up. They’re gonna let you down. It’s inevitable. But what about if you love them or trust them just because you’re a loving, trusting person? Makes it less conditional that way…
Wednesday, December 27, 2006 at 10:04 AM
Marcia99116
š I am catching up… slowly…
Anywho – The whole paragraph on Love letting you down, I get that. I sometimes want to scream (literally) at the people I love the most but in the back of my mind, I realize they don’t really deserve it because I am no better than they are, of course in other areas š It is so hard to not be bitter in love… not sure if bitter is the right word there but something like that, knowing you should do it but having resentment in the fact – makes you questions how much love is actually there instead of obligation. But sometimes you need the obligation to pull you through the harder parts of life, when love is just to hard. Love is just accepting people for their messed up and imperfect ways and sometimes in falling in love with them you have to fall out of love with them to fall back in love with them again. In case that didn’t make sense – you have to get over your expectations and just accept things to make love easier.
It’s early and I haven’t slept yet… so if this comes off wrong/odd… well sry.